molasses_terror

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 18:36:08 GMT

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 05:21:17 GMT

Well now i have 5 days left. Sarie moved in already, Sarah leaves tomorrow, Julie leaves wednesday, and Kara and I leave on saturday, so i guess i'm the last one to go. Chris wont hang out with me before i leave which is sad, but Ive been able to spend a lot of time with kara which is really nice. Finally i feel satisfied with my summer. I really wanted to just hang out with people all the time this summer and have a good time before i leave for college and the first half of summer didnt do it for me so much, but i have a feeling my last week here will be a good one. I sort of started packing, and its pretty tough, I have to clean my room too, so im trying to do both at once and its just a lot to do. plus i need to get myself a work study job, but cant really do much about it until i get to school. me and banger are going shopping tomorrow i think, and that will be fun. im excited. plus im buying a small bass amp to bring to college. i dunno, for some reason i feel very confident right now. i feel really comfortable where i stand right now. so with that, i am going to bed.

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 04:25:39 GMT

im feeling pretty good right now. im almost done with work at eckerd, and then i can finally just kick back and prepare for college. im going camping this weekend with the neighbors, and im really psyched about that. im getting my wisdom teeth out next week, which sucks, but it feels good to get it overwith finally. im feeling pretty good about the way i have been handling certain situations. i feel like im beginning to overcome some of my weeknesses, which is really good. some things that i deffinitely want to ditch before i start in a new place with new people. i feel stronger right now. however, i have work tomorrow at 9am, and i am very tired, so im going to go to bed.

goodnight

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 03:34:26 GMT

wooo, well, i am now officially finished with highschool. graduation was thursday, which went well i suppose. nothing really exciting, i went out to dinner afterword with my family and that was nice. my graduation party was saturday. that was also really nice, except for a few losers who didnt show up. i don't really care at all, its just a heads up of who really doesn't care anymore. i didnt really ask people to come to stay because the party went all night, but hey, some people showed up, even just to say hi and congrats, and that was very nice of them. sarie and sarah came from camp and that was really nice being able to spend the night with them. lots of family friends came too and it was really nice to see all of them.
soooo anyways, its monday night and i had today off to spend with my family before my grandma leaves. we went to vermont and that was very nice. howeverrrr, the rest of the week will suck. i have work tomorrow 9-4, as well as wednesday and thursday, plus i have a doctors appointment at 5:30, and i also work 4 hours friday and saturday. but oh well.
i found out who my roommate is for next year, only not really because i havent heard from her yet. i don't really care what shes like, i just really hope that we're able to get along, but im sure it won't be a problem.
anywayyyyyys im going to bed now.
night!

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 03:00:54 GMT

i am in such a shitty mood. that just about sums up my entire week, and i find that really sad. i had my physics regents today, which is good because now im finally done, graduation tomorrow, party saturday, and thats it. then i will isolate myself for a month before i leave for college. at least thats what i feel like doing. lately i just really feel like i wasted so much time on other people that ended up not caring about me at all, and now i just dont want to even start to deal with it, especially since im leaving so soon. i just want to get through this summer as quickly as possible and get out of here.

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 03:41:16 GMT

i had every intention of studying for the physics regents. and multiple times too. i even took the time to write down when the review sessions were. well sad thing is, that even if i wanted to go to them, i probably wouldn't have time to between work and graduation and everything else. i still haven't studied. i want to tomorrow, and i probably will for a little bit, but it wont make a difference at this point, im going to fail, which sucks, but at this point its too late for me to care about it.

i have been so stressed out lately and i dont even know why. all i know is i have a really short temper, i get so stressed out so easily, and then when i get some free time, i just feel so exhausted from it all. i try to just focus on one thing at a time, but whenever i do, it seems that more stuff always comes up. for example i would have loved to focus on my physics regents, but already, ive worked 20 hours since wednesday. and thats not even a lot for me, usually i work more over the weekends. then when i wasnt working i had places to be, and i always get so stressed at work, so when im home, i just want to relax, and not study. sooo, as usual, i havent studied at all.

so now i have to worry about work and my regents, plus graduation, and my party, plus i have to take care of certain things for sarie, and she keeps trying to get me to go up to lake george to visit her, and then im trying to hang out with people, but i really dont have any free time to do it.
i am just really really tired. it doesnt feel like summer yet, and im hoping that it will after this weekend. i know college is going to be really stressful for me, and i really just need time to relax and prepare before i go, and if things continue this way, that deffinitely won't happen.

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 04:07:03 GMT

i have a whole lot of shit i could say right now, but im not going to. im just going to suck it up and hold it back. im almost done with this shit anyway.

time for an update...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 21:01:44 GMT

well...school is almost over. today was the first day of finals, except i didnt have any. I had a physics class, and we reviewed for the regents. I was able to pull my grade from a 53 to something like a 65 or a 66...just barely passing. thank god. hopefully ill do ok on the regents. that was my only class, so since then ive really just been sitting around the house planning to do homework but not really doing it. my french teacher called to say i was failing, luckily i was home, so my mom didnt get to hear that message, but im making up the work tomorrow so i wont really fail. i get to sleep in tomorrow which will be nice, because im watching a movie for cine lit tonight and probably wont start it until late. I also have to finish my photo portfolio tonight, which im actually working on now. Then i have to finish my independant shoot, and the teens in their rooms shoot, and photo is finished. I need to do a little studying for my law and government final which is tomorrow, but that shouldn't be too difficult. And I also have to just study for the french tests i have to make up tomorrow, and then im set.
tomorrow night will be easier- less stuff to do, but more studying. i have to watch the second movie, and prepare for the cine lit final and I have to study for the second part of my math final...aka the hard part. after that i just have to keep studying for my physics regents and ill be all set.

anyways, getting away from the boring list of things i need to finish, i really only have two days in school left aside from the regents and the senior barbeque which i believe is at the school? graduation is coming up soon...but even soooooner sarie is coming! she comes in on thursday...unfortunately im working that night but i have all of friday off, plus sunday night, and saturday morning if possible to spend time with her before she leaves for camp.

well i suppose i should keep working or i will never finish everything...i cant wait for this summer to come!

Fri, 27 May 2005 03:35:24 GMT

i have never been so tired in my entire life.

Fri, 20 May 2005 22:19:03 GMT

im INNNNNNNNN paris!!!!!
so far ive seeeeeennnnnn notre dame, pompidou center, le louvre, champs elysees, arc de triomph, and walked a lot, took the metro, got all you can eat steak and fries, had crepes...yea...tomorrow i know we're going to the eiffel tower, but thats all i know, monday we're going to london, sunday versailles, and ill be back late wednesday...yea.

Wed, 18 May 2005 02:43:56 GMT

IM GOING TO PARIS TOMORROW

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 04:35:43 GMT

some things have been good. some things have been bad. what more can you ask for?

work tonight was pretty good, a little weird, but good. then things didnt work out with heather, so i ended up hanging out with kara for the night. lol, we didnt really do anything and i probably bored her to death, but i enjoyed it. its nice to realize that you dont need certain people who make you feel like shit, and that there are still other people to hang out with that are really cool and make you feel better. butttt yea im really tired and have work in the morning, so im gonna go to bed.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 02:52:03 GMT

blahhh...i had work tonight. it was good, and really easy. not one person came in for photo. im getting really behind in a lot of classes because i was sick before break. maybe its not really a lot, im just really behind in certain ones, like math, physics, french and photo. ok so like half my classes haha. yea so on top of trying to make everything up at once, i have work 5 days a week, horticulture club on wednesdays, and ive been filling out all these different things for loans and medical things and whatnot. All of this just from missing one and a half days of school before vacation. I have no idea how ill be able to handle leaving for a whole week in may. i dont know. i really would like to finish the year with good grades but everything just keeps getting harder, and my motivation keeps getting lower. I don't know, i guess we'll see. right now i need to focus on finishing a whole lot of physics by tomorrow morning, and learn a new math unit well enough to take a test on it tomorrow. then hopefully ill have enough time to finish my french hw tomorrow during my free blocks. wonderful.

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 04:42:11 GMT

im feeling better now. not completely, but thats a bit much to ask for. tonight was good. not for any particular reason, but it was just good. break is almost over. im still hoping for something good to come in these next few days. who knows.

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:41:12 GMT

i am so bored right now. i would have though that id enjoy just having a couple days off to do nothing, but for some reason i just feel like i need to get out and go do something. i had today and tomorrow off of work, and was supposed to have friday, but i dont get it off i guess, which sucks a lot. so today we were supposed to go out for stuff, but didnt get to because of this and that, and now we're going tomorrow, and then ill be working the rest of the week and probably wont end up doing anything else. i guess its not that big of a deal because even if my grandma werent here, its really unlikely that id be hanging out with anyone anyways. im just in a bad mood i think. either way, this vacation really sucks.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 02:41:05 GMT

its so nice to know you still have a friend in some people that you just sort of lose touch with.

i just had a talk with amanda and it was really nice of her to listen to me, and i really enjoyed hearing from her. i wish we saw each other more. these types of things make me sad to be leaving for college. i feel like i took certain things for granted and i want to go back and value my time with those people or things. its a shame we're only human.

anyways, im in a pretty good mood right now. i took medicine earlier which helped some of my symptoms, but now i have a massive headache, im sort of tired, not really in a drowsy way, but more of an 'i am so sick and weak that im just going to pass out' tired. who knows, but i feel crappy, and have to work 8 hours tomorrow, so im going to bed now.

Just How Fast Does Molasses Flow Downhill In January?

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 19:21:30 GMT